FAITH

信心 — 就是禱告之後，完全相信，用讚美和感謝去等待神的答案。 信心 — 就是當你看不見、感覺不到時，仍然相信神始終在這裡。 信心 — 就是在最黑暗的光景中，還能禱告、唱詩、讚美神。 信心 — 就是敢在毫無勝利徵兆之時，單憑神的話，向神索取所應許的勝利。 信心 — 就是耐性等候神。 信心 — 就是「只見耶穌」，「仰望耶穌」。 信心 — 就是以神的話為算數，在未見應驗之前就已深信不疑。 信心 — 不是維繫於我們足夠堅定的信念，也不在於我們情緒的高亢或平穩，

­而 是依靠神對祂話語的保證！ 信心 — 就是不看自己，只看全能的神。 信心 — 是記住在神的國度裡，事事都基於神的應許，而不是憑感覺。 信心 — 就是當神以「不！」回答我的祈求時，我仍能確信祂將安排最好的給­我。 信心 — 就是停止憂慮，而把未來交託給掌管一切的神。 信心 — 就是不看環境，完全信賴神的話語。 信心 — 就是相信我們所看不見的；信心的酬報，就是看見我們所相信的。

I'm fine

Well, long time didn't writing here... Once again to say "Hi"to my self, I think I'm fine here... Something I though i was lost but now I was found, Something i though i get it, but I'm lost. See, this call life... we never know that what will going to happen, but we only know is happening. Normally guy will looking with girls outlook more then their intrinsic, and I know that what Guys want I have nothing at all. anyway, I still believe that God will ready the best for me, I know everything now is look unfavorable to me. But  I still continuing to pray and I trust God will lead me to the way that he want to lead me be, I'm saying this not because I'm Stronger then others people, but I just want to say that cause bible tell me that, what i Pray and ask my heavenly father and trust him will lead me. no matter the final answer will get it or lose it, I know God still got his wonderful plan in me. After so many experience came to me, I understand 1 thing is Love don't means you must get the person or want to get the thing. At the opposite side you should learn to give and share, If I really love him. Don't means I must get him to my side, but i should learn to bless him and none stop pray for him....I wish that you can understand what I think about, But is ok for me to keep hide on your back to support you.

Thanks God that you finally replaying me...

Thanks God, it happening with so supraise, I pray hard that u will replaying me so treat me as ur friend....when yesterday night at airport, I miss u so much...n at a blessing chance I get ur msg after few month, I'm really feel bless with that. It enough for me as u still treat me as ur friend... However I dunno u treat me as ur best friend or nt. Bt it good enough for me, will continue to pray for u to get the ticket n back to Korea...

This is the cat that I take photo for u few months ago... The cat still same the place still same, bt ur nt here anymore....

How great if you was here with me....

Time past with fast, I can't remember how long time that your taken since the day you leaving Tawau until now... I miss you so much, this is the only word that keep repeating in my heart. I got many things would like to share with you, but i leave this chance or hope to God, let HIM to decide for me... what is the ending will be. This few days many things I'm going to think and many things it make me lazy to study bible or pray it sound like not good right? When the time you was here, we like to share many topics and Christian Life. It really help me and encourage me to grow in Christ, but now it feel like the life back to the body without soul. I'm not talking because of you then I study bible... but it because of you, I readying bible with more stick on God and the life full with color...Tomorrow I will going to stay in Church and continue my busy day to preparing my work of Alpha camp, wish everything will be go smooth.

Then the coming 2-4/6 will going to Kota Kinabalu, I wish I will be alright there n it bring a lot of the memories with you to me... Today, 1 of my church teenager playing kiss the rain at our church hall, it make my heart 1st again be touch n in my deeper heart got a bit of feeling with sad. Cause this is the song that you play for me before, maybe for you that just a song n no other meaning to play it. But for me, it really touch my heart and it never happen to me before, there never got a guy to play a song for me and your the only 1. How great if 1 day you can play this for me again... n this time I will record it, so that every moment when I miss you, I can replay it.... It sound like stupid, but I know love a person don't means must get the person, but we can use another way to bless and pray for the person to show our love.

How great, If your older then me... and we can meet each other in a right time, a right place and right timing. I miss you so much, Tom....

1st time to record song

Woh.... Today is my 1st time to explore recording song, it feel great~^^ From the day My church cell group members and I, we start writing edit a music sheet and learn to write out the lyric until now we record the song. Everything so amazing, and it wonderful....It no words can explain how precious and joy that the feeling is.....^^ and when the time I record this, my mind just keep think about you.... I wish 1 day you got a change to heard this song, I wish to share my joy with you, today is day off but i didn't see you online. How are you so far? I get to know that your cabin mate yesterday moving back to his hometown, don't know why I got a strong feeling to felt that you will be lonely and it make me felt sad. I wish were there to give you some comfort,but I know i can't....I think you still hate me and don't want to meet me up right? I really pray hard for meet you back and we still be best friend. I would like to told you that I miss you so much, but I not willing to speak it out to you....

Today I search for the ticket to Bali, it really expensive.... can you pray for me? so that I can get cheaper ticket to there can having a safe journey there. I always look strong or look like tomboy front of people, that not real of me...but it the 1 of me to cover up my sadness and the weakness of me, if time can return again.... I just wish to show you, the real of me and tell you my real age. But are there any hope for us to meet again? are there any hope for me to be your best friend again? I not willing to keep any hopes, but I none stop to pray for you will be a great person for God. Miss You so much ...

LOMO with my photoshop~

A busy day...

Finally today I can wake up at the early morning 6am  to attend church devotion....YEAH!!!! It good to pray hard in the early morning, feel more closer with God.and after that continue my second turn devotion for church staff and the 3rd round for my own devotion, really a meaningful day for me.Other then that today I do a meaningful thing is I make a crow of thorns, the thorns keep hurting my hand... but don't know why when i keep making it, I felt thanks giving to Jesus Christ....... He wear this on his head, and he didn't complain anything. He just accept and willing to cover all of mine sins with his blood...How wonderful that my savior Lord is....T.T and I realize that how stupid that the person who make this thorns crown for Jesus Christ, this person don't felt pain or hurt when he making this thorn crown??? For me, I really felt painful when I try to make this stuff for my church decoration on Good Friday, then my hands keep hurting by the thorns and blooding... It make me more precious and more closer to understand the feeling of Christ when he facing this all kind of things just because of 1 reason and purpose want to survive us....Thank you Jesus Christ, I love You...

A Great Days to explore God...

As same like days that past, felt sad when the time I wake up...Mindset keep thinking about him, I believe it spiritual attack by Devil. So I keep praying and start praising God, However that moment my heart felt deep sad and even don't want to open my mouth. After half hour when I felt better, I'm going to ready my self and pick up a teenager. I believe that when we willing closer with Jesus Christ, and our life will being change. When I arrive the teenager house, He's father told me... he will not going to church with following my car, as his father will going to pick him there. The I just kindly greet his dad and leaving,  I really can't believe that I don't have any complain regarding to this case.

And today worship, I didn't ready much what I going to talk in the service. Cause I know that I'm not the person who going to lead this morning service, But is Jesus Christ. He is the main person who lead this morning service, I felt touch by God with the song 'What the Lord has done in me', it a great song that really bring me to Lord and the lyric like saying what the real words in my heart. After finish the service few of my church friends and me going to meet up with my Korean Friend who's will going back to Korea very very soon... Praise the Lord, we having a great chat and I thanks God giving a chance for me to let go some things in my heart.

Wish to take photo with Tom and saying Goodbye and keep contact are my wish in heart, when Tom leaving. But I don't know why when Tom leaving he treat me badly, so i keep this in my heart. So today I felt Charissa and Issac just like Tom and Jerry, so i felt better when I saw Isaac touch Charissa head and shake hand and giving gift and write something to keep in touch. I think this is a wonderful gift that God giving me, however I can't explore this by my self, but I learn to give thanks, because what they do make me feel bless that why I know is time for me too to let go, and I keep believe in one thing with FAITH is, if this guy really a guy that god ready for me... For sure God will let us meet each other again and give a chance for both of us to love each other. It sound like crazy, but I really believe in this.Cause Jesus Christ is a real God, the who answer prayer and keep promise.

After hang out with my friends, rush home and sleep, people surround me keep told me that I'm look tired and sick look. Ya, I think yes I'm...Cause I got 2 big panda eyes....>.< and after wake up from my long nap, I'm going to my grandpa house. It really felt good and bless, long time I didn't visit my grandpa so tonight I having a great great chat with all my relative. I precious every moment with them, cause it really great and felt warm...Thank you Jesus, everything of this not because of my own. But because of your blessing, so I can having this great blessing and grace from you... One again I would like to say Thank you Jesus and I love You so so much.....^^

A Love Letter that come from Heaven...

Wake up at the early morning, my body continuing to feel sick... After a long night fighting with feeling cold...and the solution is I take my half day sick leave rest at home. Other then that my feeling of missing some one also not gone easy like what I think about, it continuing too to attack my heart. A more bad thing is I keep dreaming him, I think this is what the Chinese people say " ri you shuo shi, ye you shuo meng". and my solution for this is keep praying, keep telling God that I know this sadness feeling is a fake, and ask God help me to having strength to over come this bad feeling. So my final decision is, open my computer and start lyrics for my church cell group new song.


You know, if you are the person who really like to "Facebook" you may will same like me, the whole life because of not "Facebook" will change to no meaning at all. Because of I would like to ignore someone I love and recover my own from a dead love situation, I forces my self not going to "Facebook" until I can self control my own. Look crazy right??? But I know this is the only way, I can do.... Alright, not too far from those smaller stuff, back to the topic.... I'm going to on my laptop and hunting some topic of LOVE to write my lyric, cause this is my 1st time to write this kind of funny stuff, that i never think about will happen in my life. and Yes, I'm try my best to writing this funny thing and hunting some words about LOVE for this lyric.

In Inadvertently, I found a very meaningful book. It call "A LOVE letter from Heaven"and when I read the intro I really feel warm and it just like a live words that God spoke to me. It write in Chinese

从我的心通往你的心
我所拣选的你
你是我最珍爱的女儿
永远不会太迟
今天就成为我照耀世界的光
我就是道路奔向胜利
看清什么是最重要的
倾听我的声音
通过试炼的胜利
珍惜你的身体

你是真正的美女
你已永远得宽恕
你将得到丰厚的奖赏
以能力来祷告
穿戴如皇族
跟从我
困顿时刻我与你同在
自由是一种选择
以我的信心向前走
将你所爱的人交托给我
我会为你赎回时间
选择战役
你是满有恩赐的
你的生命是一首交响曲
营造平安祥和的家
你拥有美丽的双手
以我的话语闯述生命
我必保护你
我是来服事你的
绝对不要妥协
在你栽植之处成长
持续的等候我
我必治愈你的心
在我里面汲取勇气
走向通往生命的道路
不要害怕
明白真理
我是你的平安
到我这里来

今天生病回忆录

今天是个特别的一天，大清早六时正闹钟响了可是懒人始终就是个懒人。继续的揣摩我的时间在床上赖床，直到时间一分一秒的过去。。。七点四十五分起床迅速准备出门，我想这是我每天都在重复做的事情。到达办公室不难想像的，我又是那位第一位出现在办公室里的员工。可是，还好的是汤uncle也准备去载老人家了。今天大家不约而同的特别早到达办公室，那也让我能提早准备我的灵修了。今天的我特别的激动，祷告中就不懂为什么开始哭泣了，不断的祷告不断的哭泣，也不懂将祷告了多久就完毕了只是祷告当中背部被冷气不断的吹着。当时也没有多大的关注就开始回到工作岗位上，开始今天忙碌的一天。当正在投入工作繁忙当中，骨头开始酸痛全身莫名的发冷，头也开始疼痛起来。我在不断的逞强工作，到最后真的不行了乘午饭时间睡觉休息。当中领悟到约汉前阵子也和我雷同的病状，我想当时的他一定也很痛苦，就将的我就开始傻傻的在心中不断的为他祈祷也感谢上帝让我能经历体会他的感受。
休息大约一小时之后开始好转了，没有在发冷发热了只是还有一些的头疼。就勉强的再次回到工作上，我觉得上帝是满有怜悯的神。当我在病痛中时，同工们都会关心我都让我回家休息，只是自己不断的逞强要把工作完成。之后传道又特地帮我买便当，那种的温馨真的很难用言语能表达出来的。大概到达下午三点多吧。。。发烧发冷再次来袭，这次头疼比早上更严重了只好再次回到休闲站休息。 之后和忆缘一同享用晚餐，虽然没有很多休息的时间，可是让我有美好和她交流的时间。上帝的恩典会够我用的，总是在我需要人陪伴的时候给与我安慰。虽然知道约汉有找那位女生也感觉失望为什么他对我如此冷淡，可是我依然要因着上帝而喜乐。虽然看起来我很笨，可是我相信也很确定谁掌管我的生命。

Sunset...

Tom

Mabul Island

为北韩（朝鲜）祷告～

细看北韩：

试想想：自己十五 岁的时候，开始变得独立，要面对朋辈压力、冲突．．．．．．开始跟朋友去卡拉OK、看电影、打球。又试想想，自己是另一个国家中一个十五岁的小女孩：只因 为是女性，就要面对无理指控、迫害与及一个残暴不仁的政权，每天都要争扎求存、甚至要卖血为生，随时会被人拐走，遭到毒打、无情的性侵犯与虐待，面对“死 亡”与“离别”，随时会被送入劳改营，甚至全家上上下下都「无故失踪」．．．．．．这就是北韩人民要面对的苛政及迫害，你知道吗？

美国宗教自由委员会(U.S. Commission on Internationals Religious freedom USCIRF) 2003年报告指出，在北韩中的少女“存活”指望是非常渺茫。上面描述的并不一个个别的例子，而是总括了一些逃亡出来的北韩难民的惨痛经历。

劳改营：你可知道 劳改营中的景况如何？在无数“消失”於劳改营中的北韩人中，只有最多10人可以逃出，营内的景况恶劣到连狱卒也会逃走！你可以想像一下这是何等恶劣的地 方！北韩奉行“封闭”政策，国际间人权及监察等组织都无法获取北韩景内的人权状况，但据估计在过去30年内，有约四十万人(你没有看错，是 400,000.00！四十万！！！)死於劳改营中，那些逃出的人，没有一个身体是没有损伤的，有些甚至连坐或站都有困难！他们指出在营内，每个“犯人” 都会被毒打，捱饿，强迫工作、性虐待、谋杀、处决，惨不忍睹的拆磨．．．．．．他们更被“鼓励去互相撒谎”，只为换取额外的食物，你可曾经历过饥饿到连自 己的手指都想吃了！？连老鼠蟑螂，都可以活生生放进口中？！你亲生的骨肉就在你双眼前被狠狠的扼死，然後，惨遭“分屍”？！奈何自己连反抗的机会都没有， 你要用石头“掷死”一家人，因为他们尝试逃走，你甚至会被迫吃掉自己亲人的屍体？！．．．．．．这些就是北韩人民的痛苦，而北韩的基督徒却要面对比上述更 严重的迫害（简直惨不忍睹），他们要去清洗粪池但绝对有可能会在池中“活活的浸死”（没错是在粪池中），营中最危险的苦工都是交给基督徒做的,那些官员的 目的就要他们重申他们不再是基督徒。但你又可知道，其实在40年代，北韩首都平壤却是有“东方耶路撒冷－朝鲜半岛基督教中心”的称号？！超过1/6人口是 热心传福音的基督徒。USCIRF2002北韩报告中指出，据一些地下教会网络统计，虽然受到如此的迫害，北韩仍然有约30万基督徒，而不少到了劳改营的 都在营中归主，甚至为主牺牲。请为北韩中受苦的肢体祷告...

恳切的祷告：

1、当南北韩分裂时，很多基督徒放弃了逃亡的机会，他们决定不离开，挺身面对迫害就是为了让余下的人有机会归主，请为他们的希望→北韩人民归主→恳切祷告；愿他们的愿望成真福音可以遍传，就算无情冷酷的迫害也阻止不了。

２、祈求他们在折磨中仍庇保持坚定不移的信心与意志。

３、祈求他们能以恩典的心面对那些独裁政权的迫害者，以盼望和喜乐的心面对劳改营中未信的同胞，以兄弟姊妹的心，互相扶持（虽然极大可能因此赔上自己的性命）罗12:10。

４、祈求圣灵每天都为他们代祷，亲自的勉励他们。