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A busy day...

Finally today I can wake up at the early morning 6am  to attend church devotion....YEAH!!!! It good to pray hard in the early morning, feel more closer with God.and after that continue my second turn devotion for church staff and the 3rd round for my own devotion, really a meaningful day for me.Other then that today I do a meaningful thing is I make a crow of thorns, the thorns keep hurting my hand... but don't know why when i keep making it, I felt thanks giving to Jesus Christ....... He wear this on his head, and he didn't complain anything. He just accept and willing to cover all of mine sins with his blood...How wonderful that my savior Lord is....T.T and I realize that how stupid that the person who make this thorns crown for Jesus Christ, this person don't felt pain or hurt when he making this thorn crown??? For me, I really felt painful when I try to make this stuff for my church decoration on Good Friday, then my hands keep hurting by the thorns and blooding... It make me more precious and more closer to understand the feeling of Christ when he facing this all kind of things just because of 1 reason and purpose want to survive us....Thank you Jesus Christ, I love You...

A Great Days to explore God...

As same like days that past, felt sad when the time I wake up...Mindset keep thinking about him, I believe it spiritual attack by Devil. So I keep praying and start praising God, However that moment my heart felt deep sad and even don't want to open my mouth. After half hour when I felt better, I'm going to ready my self and pick up a teenager. I believe that when we willing closer with Jesus Christ, and our life will being change. When I arrive the teenager house, He's father told me... he will not going to church with following my car, as his father will going to pick him there. The I just kindly greet his dad and leaving,  I really can't believe that I don't have any complain regarding to this case.

And today worship, I didn't ready much what I going to talk in the service. Cause I know that I'm not the person who going to lead this morning service, But is Jesus Christ. He is the main person who lead this morning service, I felt touch by God with the song 'What the Lord has done in me', it a great song that really bring me to Lord and the lyric like saying what the real words in my heart. After finish the service few of my church friends and me going to meet up with my Korean Friend who's will going back to Korea very very soon... Praise the Lord, we having a great chat and I thanks God giving a chance for me to let go some things in my heart.

Wish to take photo with Tom and saying Goodbye and keep contact are my wish in heart, when Tom leaving. But I don't know why when Tom leaving he treat me badly, so i keep this in my heart. So today I felt Charissa and Issac just like Tom and Jerry, so i felt better when I saw Isaac touch Charissa head and shake hand and giving gift and write something to keep in touch. I think this is a wonderful gift that God giving me, however I can't explore this by my self, but I learn to give thanks, because what they do make me feel bless that why I know is time for me too to let go, and I keep believe in one thing with FAITH is, if this guy really a guy that god ready for me... For sure God will let us meet each other again and give a chance for both of us to love each other. It sound like crazy, but I really believe in this.Cause Jesus Christ is a real God, the who answer prayer and keep promise.

After hang out with my friends, rush home and sleep, people surround me keep told me that I'm look tired and sick look. Ya, I think yes I'm...Cause I got 2 big panda eyes....>.< and after wake up from my long nap, I'm going to my grandpa house. It really felt good and bless, long time I didn't visit my grandpa so tonight I having a great great chat with all my relative. I precious every moment with them, cause it really great and felt warm...Thank you Jesus, everything of this not because of my own. But because of your blessing, so I can having this great blessing and grace from you... One again I would like to say Thank you Jesus and I love You so so much.....^^

A Love Letter that come from Heaven...

Wake up at the early morning, my body continuing to feel sick... After a long night fighting with feeling cold...and the solution is I take my half day sick leave rest at home. Other then that my feeling of missing some one also not gone easy like what I think about, it continuing too to attack my heart. A more bad thing is I keep dreaming him, I think this is what the Chinese people say " ri you shuo shi, ye you shuo meng". and my solution for this is keep praying, keep telling God that I know this sadness feeling is a fake, and ask God help me to having strength to over come this bad feeling. So my final decision is, open my computer and start lyrics for my church cell group new song.


You know, if you are the person who really like to "Facebook" you may will same like me, the whole life because of not "Facebook" will change to no meaning at all. Because of I would like to ignore someone I love and recover my own from a dead love situation, I forces my self not going to "Facebook" until I can self control my own. Look crazy right??? But I know this is the only way, I can do.... Alright, not too far from those smaller stuff, back to the topic.... I'm going to on my laptop and hunting some topic of LOVE to write my lyric, cause this is my 1st time to write this kind of funny stuff, that i never think about will happen in my life. and Yes, I'm try my best to writing this funny thing and hunting some words about LOVE for this lyric.

In Inadvertently, I found a very meaningful book. It call "A LOVE letter from Heaven"and when I read the intro I really feel warm and it just like a live words that God spoke to me. It write in Chinese

从我的心通往你的心
我所拣选的你
你是我最珍爱的女儿
永远不会太迟
今天就成为我照耀世界的光
我就是道路奔向胜利
看清什么是最重要的
倾听我的声音
通过试炼的胜利
珍惜你的身体

你是真正的美女
你已永远得宽恕
你将得到丰厚的奖赏
以能力来祷告
穿戴如皇族
跟从我
困顿时刻我与你同在
自由是一种选择
以我的信心向前走
将你所爱的人交托给我
我会为你赎回时间
选择战役
你是满有恩赐的
你的生命是一首交响曲
营造平安祥和的家
你拥有美丽的双手
以我的话语闯述生命
我必保护你
我是来服事你的
绝对不要妥协
在你栽植之处成长
持续的等候我
我必治愈你的心
在我里面汲取勇气
走向通往生命的道路
不要害怕
明白真理
我是你的平安
到我这里来

今天生病回忆录

今天是个特别的一天，大清早六时正闹钟响了可是懒人始终就是个懒人。继续的揣摩我的时间在床上赖床，直到时间一分一秒的过去。。。七点四十五分起床迅速准备出门，我想这是我每天都在重复做的事情。到达办公室不难想像的，我又是那位第一位出现在办公室里的员工。可是，还好的是汤uncle也准备去载老人家了。今天大家不约而同的特别早到达办公室，那也让我能提早准备我的灵修了。今天的我特别的激动，祷告中就不懂为什么开始哭泣了，不断的祷告不断的哭泣，也不懂将祷告了多久就完毕了只是祷告当中背部被冷气不断的吹着。当时也没有多大的关注就开始回到工作岗位上，开始今天忙碌的一天。当正在投入工作繁忙当中，骨头开始酸痛全身莫名的发冷，头也开始疼痛起来。我在不断的逞强工作，到最后真的不行了乘午饭时间睡觉休息。当中领悟到约汉前阵子也和我雷同的病状，我想当时的他一定也很痛苦，就将的我就开始傻傻的在心中不断的为他祈祷也感谢上帝让我能经历体会他的感受。
休息大约一小时之后开始好转了，没有在发冷发热了只是还有一些的头疼。就勉强的再次回到工作上，我觉得上帝是满有怜悯的神。当我在病痛中时，同工们都会关心我都让我回家休息，只是自己不断的逞强要把工作完成。之后传道又特地帮我买便当，那种的温馨真的很难用言语能表达出来的。大概到达下午三点多吧。。。发烧发冷再次来袭，这次头疼比早上更严重了只好再次回到休闲站休息。 之后和忆缘一同享用晚餐，虽然没有很多休息的时间，可是让我有美好和她交流的时间。上帝的恩典会够我用的，总是在我需要人陪伴的时候给与我安慰。虽然知道约汉有找那位女生也感觉失望为什么他对我如此冷淡，可是我依然要因着上帝而喜乐。虽然看起来我很笨，可是我相信也很确定谁掌管我的生命。