How great if you was here with me....

Time past with fast, I can't remember how long time that your taken since the day you leaving Tawau until now... I miss you so much, this is the only word that keep repeating in my heart. I got many things would like to share with you, but i leave this chance or hope to God, let HIM to decide for me... what is the ending will be. This few days many things I'm going to think and many things it make me lazy to study bible or pray it sound like not good right? When the time you was here, we like to share many topics and Christian Life. It really help me and encourage me to grow in Christ, but now it feel like the life back to the body without soul. I'm not talking because of you then I study bible... but it because of you, I readying bible with more stick on God and the life full with color...Tomorrow I will going to stay in Church and continue my busy day to preparing my work of Alpha camp, wish everything will be go smooth.

Then the coming 2-4/6 will going to Kota Kinabalu, I wish I will be alright there n it bring a lot of the memories with you to me... Today, 1 of my church teenager playing kiss the rain at our church hall, it make my heart 1st again be touch n in my deeper heart got a bit of feeling with sad. Cause this is the song that you play for me before, maybe for you that just a song n no other meaning to play it. But for me, it really touch my heart and it never happen to me before, there never got a guy to play a song for me and your the only 1. How great if 1 day you can play this for me again... n this time I will record it, so that every moment when I miss you, I can replay it.... It sound like stupid, but I know love a person don't means must get the person, but we can use another way to bless and pray for the person to show our love.

How great, If your older then me... and we can meet each other in a right time, a right place and right timing. I miss you so much, Tom....

1st time to record song

Woh.... Today is my 1st time to explore recording song, it feel great~^^ From the day My church cell group members and I, we start writing edit a music sheet and learn to write out the lyric until now we record the song. Everything so amazing, and it wonderful....It no words can explain how precious and joy that the feeling is.....^^ and when the time I record this, my mind just keep think about you.... I wish 1 day you got a change to heard this song, I wish to share my joy with you, today is day off but i didn't see you online. How are you so far? I get to know that your cabin mate yesterday moving back to his hometown, don't know why I got a strong feeling to felt that you will be lonely and it make me felt sad. I wish were there to give you some comfort,but I know i can't....I think you still hate me and don't want to meet me up right? I really pray hard for meet you back and we still be best friend. I would like to told you that I miss you so much, but I not willing to speak it out to you....

Today I search for the ticket to Bali, it really expensive.... can you pray for me? so that I can get cheaper ticket to there can having a safe journey there. I always look strong or look like tomboy front of people, that not real of me...but it the 1 of me to cover up my sadness and the weakness of me, if time can return again.... I just wish to show you, the real of me and tell you my real age. But are there any hope for us to meet again? are there any hope for me to be your best friend again? I not willing to keep any hopes, but I none stop to pray for you will be a great person for God. Miss You so much ...